Illogic Freedom

It's official. Coffee has no power in my life anymore. Freedom reigns!.......... Assignments reign even more!
Assignment - 1
Coffee - 0

Thoughts just came into my mind when i wanted to put that up as my facebook status. Honestly, i still wish coffee to have power and its effect on me. So I can stay awake to do my assignments, even at the expense of an unhealthy body. Then i realized.. shouldnt I be glad? Hey! Im free from coffee! It dawned on me that when fredom is given, sometimes we just dont want it. We want to stay put with our miseries in life. We prefer methods that brings assurance in doing life, even it means at the expense of being cage up with our misery ways. As for my case, coffee. Cause the outcome of consuming coffee serves my need, but really...it can only last for 1 night. And then my body would yearn for rest.

Same thing goes to the soul, sometimes we hold onto captives in our lives, cause we are just so used to having them. It's not that Fredom has not been granted, but we choose to continue to live in these bondages, fulfilling our desires of being in control, even it means just for a while. Who would blame insecure human beings like us? We want certainties in life, even it means living in captives. But then our soul would yearn for true Joy and Love that comes from Freedom..

With greater freedom, comes more uncertainties and greater surrendering of the heart.
With Freedom given through and in Jesus, comes uncontainable joy and greater trust in Him, even at times logic kicks in and shouts : I DONT WANT THIS FREEDOM. I WANNA GO BACK TO WHAT'S CERTAIN IN LIFE. Cause this Freedom is so uncertain...yet so liberating, both at the same time.

Logic keeps me from experiencing Freedom and a greater trust in Him.
Truth is, we are loved by an illogic God, who loves us so illogically that He gave his one and only Son, so that we can embrace this illogic Freedom that the world could not offer....